非人类承受的打击..

I don't even know why
And how can I wasting my life!?
I know this will be the only last chance to decide my future, my dream life...
But I just can't understand why am I not having the mood and the 动力 to start preparing my UEC!!!
Although I'm 'wasting' the MONIES on my tuition classes,
I'm STILL very lazy now
Just like a worm
I hate myself 
but then?
Nothing else
Keep lazy-ing...

I told myself
I want to study abroad in others country out of Malaysia
Maybe like Korea, Singapore or the western country .
I told myself
I want to have a better life
I want to live more comfortable
I want myself manage to have breakfast or lunch or dinner or otherwise in the cafeteria or as same class as
I want to own my house but not big house ofcourse ~
Bla Bla Bla......
Someone can tell me how can I start revising to prepare my UEC ??? T^T
I have already missed my SPM ...
I can't let go my UEC anymore..
Mustn't !! You know... :(
Help me pls=="

I must push myself right now
April is coming
Means that UEC is closerr...

By the way..
Saying RIP to the honourable Mr. 李光耀

原以为你的病就快痊愈了很开心，
但其实却是你回光返照之时？
没想到今晚在客厅听到你唯一的吠声
会是最后的一声。。。
and another RIP to my fatty dog 大番薯。。。
sigh..